My Demons

I look in the mirror and start to cringe
It's myself I hate as I pick up the syringe
I want to cry but I no longer feel
My own reflection just doesn't seem real
I try to remember who I used to be
But I have become just a fading memory
I never thought it would have this control
I gave it my mind, my heart and my soul
I have given in to my demons inside
Trapped in a needle, I have screamed and cried
Wondering if there's anyone left who cares
That I'm shouting, dying inside these nightmares
I want to wake up, pretend it was all just a dream
Instead its reality and all that it seemed
So I'm all alone in this prison I've built
Behind my bars I watch my world wither and wilt
I pray to a god in which I don't believe
Knowing its my devil I long to deceive
I've made my heart so cold and numb
I'll never come back, so to my demons I succumb
I apologize to those who said they care
My burdens were not yours to bare
Yet I laid them on you and walked away
Remember me not for who I was in the end
But remember when I was a daughter, a mother, and friend